So it has been a wonderfully fascinating year. Really, really fast re-cap here as I do have a strong teaching point story to get to.

January was super-busy: launched a virtual product, offered coaching programs, created and carried out a talk for a MD Roundtable Conference in Florida (had my family over super bowl weekend)

February was an eye-opener: was on a call with my own coach; realized I was giving WAY too much and had depleted my own energy; took the month off! (WOW awesome!!)

March came and went… I continued to rest.

April I successfully hosted my third virtual telesummit, the RejuveNation Collaboration. The registration was much lower than the first two and I wondered what went wrong.

May consisted of interviews, discussions, and research with the nursing world to see what I could do better with the upcoming RCIV in October.

JUNE-JULY-AUGUST summer time… and the livin’s easy… I love summer and take to it so well. I had many, many reminders, instances, and experiences with play. I also found a really great training program on the universal laws and inhaled all of the CDs and trainings I could as I drove to and from work.

Here we are in the present moment- I am in a new mentorship, learning ways to build my business the introverted way. I am loving it and was introduced to the art of story-telling.

Now this all works out great because I LOVE to tell stories. My sister joked at my wedding that it was a good thing my husband was a good listener- because living with me for the rest of his life he’d sure have to be patient to take it all in. I love to talk. I love to share. I love to teach by example, story, and metaphor.

Well, I took this story-telling modality to heart and created the September Self-Change Challenge. One of the commitments I made to myself is to tell more stories. And the other one is to do so using video. So I got all excited and energized up- and created this video that explains this in quick detail.

Well, first thing I got was a comment that basically said “why don’t you go get some training so that you can learn how to speak publicly”. Really? UGH! I have given numerous talks, webinars, workshops, and teach classes on a routine basis. I get great reviews. I get feedback about how professional, engaging, and interactive I am.

This comment struck a nerve.

But you know what? I realized that maybe it struck me so hard because maybe, deep down, am I secretly judging and doubting my own self?

You see one reason we give, do, help, care for, and put out to another is because we are quietly trying to hush up our own inner critic. I talked about this today with my Reiki class I am teaching. Is the reason that we do, do, and do even more is because we are trying to prove something?

And who are we trying to prove it to? Most likely ourselves.

So let me just ask you this- look at your own life… what do you see? How accepting are you of you? Is there a place or space where you are constantly giving, doing, and acting? Is this because you are trying to prove something to someone else? To yourself?

Take note of the criticism that you may receive. Does it sting because someone else said it to you? Or is it hurting because you are critical of yourself?

Please be easy on yourself. Let go of the inner doubt. I know I am working on it too…

I’d love to hear from you! Go ahead and leave a question, comment, or reflection below. Have a healthy day! Thank you.